Daehawk wrote: ↑Sun Feb 11, 2018 6:20 pmI know a lot of you come from a place where you cant comprehend our lives. Its not your fault. Its like Trump or ZhaZha trying to understand why a minimum wage worker doesn't get a limo.
I think you'd find that our situations are pretty similar. I'm in a tiny midwestern town. Hell, while I'm not sure exactly which city you're in, I would be willing to bet that I could have lunch at my house and dinner at yours. I'm on disability and perpetually broke. I am responsible for the wellbeing of others despite my low income. I also don't get out of the house much, and don't have much real-world support. I also find my peace of mind through a hobby (PC gaming) that I shouldn't have anything to do with due to the cost. And I'd also go stir crazy if I didn't have it. I know I have in the past. And I worry constantly about what will happen if some component or other dies, as it will likely limit or remove that one source of peace for a period of months. And yes, an unexpected hundreds expense like an ambulance would cripple financially me for months.
I also have a car that hovers on the edge of death. Every time I get in it, I wonder if it will start. The only interior lights that work are the warning lights, which don't turn off regardless of whether there is an issue, so if I drive at night I have to mount my phone on the dash with the flashlight on to see the dials. The rearview mirror is gone. The power locks don't work, and the windows can't be rolled down. There is no power steering. And this car took every resource I had, including all of my savings, all I could save, gift money, and a GoFundMe. With all of that, it was literally only one of three cars in the eight or nine lots I visited that was within my budget.
So if I tend to jump on you about this stuff more than some others, it isn't because I don't understand. It's actually the opposite.
What doesn't kill me makes me stranger.