Blackhawk wrote: ↑Fri Nov 08, 2024 3:03 pm
It helps the blood pressure when you know which ties to cut (or to avoid forming.)
I am possibly unique in that I have not been surrounded by trash people. Either by accident or unintentional effort, I do not frequently socialize with or have constant contact with individuals that are openly awful. It's true I live in an area where I'm surrounded by them, but I can more or less minimize my dealings with the community.
My issue is my line of work and how it requires that I soak myself in all of this to stay current with laws, regulations and the direct/indirect impacts on the various community structures I'm involved with. I cannot escape it; I cannot ignore it. The 'tie" for me to cut would be to walk away from an entire career and then somehow manifest money by doing something as a 50+ year old man in an arena where I have no knowledge or connection to my prior lifetime.
I have a job interview next week with the state health department. It's something I've wanted for 20 years - the chance to working at a state level. I've finally hit the lottery and managed to get an interview as we're headed into what is going to be a national and likely global catastrophe. The sense of dread I'm experiencing is real and omnipresent.
I'm jealous of anyone that can go to work and turn it all off. And then come home and avoid the news or social media and cocoon themselves for the next four years and just exist. That's not an option for me, unfortunately. And I'm saying this as white middle aged guy that generally speaking, has no worries. These last 5 years have taken so much from me and my family; time and things we'll never get back. I was kinda hoping things were trending in a better direction again for 2025 and beyond and instead we're collectively headed backwards.
There's nothing anyone can do here and I know I need to figure out how to process this in a healthy way, but today is not that day.