Funny Im the same. Funny because when I started gaming in 84 I had Master of Orion. I read the entire manual before even playing it. And its a huge manual. I always read them through for all my games first then played the games. I just loved PC games and the detail to them and the stories in the manuals and such.Been years and years. Might be fun? Easy to learn anyway. That's the real roadblock to playing anything new...the learning curve. It's nearly impossible for me to just start playing a game and figuring it out as I go. As I don't enjoy doing it either, so I spend hours reading up on a game before playing, most of the time.
Now I dont read a thing even when theres a manual and I want fast action play. Back then i was all about turn based combat and such and loved every sec of games like Fallout 1 and 2 and such. Now i cant stand turn based anything. Gotta be real tiem and fast.
I have fortnite, tf2, and fallout 76 installed right now. Im already not logging into palia unfortunately. Im so stressed and sleepless that I kinda dread firing up anything and when i do I log back out sooner than ever. Or I get really pissed about something in the game and leave.